Thousand seconds had passed and still I'm stuck here for some unknown reason.
You won't believe what my life have so far.. I'm just as busy as any crazy person would be so forgive my student memory for not updating as I have promised.
Anyway, is it just me or the font in my tablet sucks?
Haha..
Life has been good for some magical reason but then, just when Cinderella was enjoying the company of her prince charming, the bell rung and she have to go back to the old Cinderella-- and the tattered life she have. That's what happened to me. While I was busy savoring the moment, someone has to barge in and change the whole setting. Guess God interfered again to wake His daughter who have been dreaming all this time. There are tons of stuffs to do and so many dreams to accomplish. I believe this isn't the time to dream some more magical things.
As it turned out, I, again, moved out and wishing my life away to 'permanently stay' here, here where I am right now. This is the first time that I got to use this keyboard again. God knows how much I cried for this, so I'm thankful to be able to sit in front of the monitor and blabber again. I'm going to take care these stuff from now on. Scattered, eh?
My thoughts are as scattered as my face. Haha. Sorry, I haven't introduced to you the introduction of this post.
Well, first of all, I would like to say that I'm going to do blogging again. It has been months, I know. But to tell you honestly there are events and thoughts that are hard to put into words that is why I avoided using this platform. You know me well, I can actually put every single detail into life when I get carried away by my feelings.
Second, I don't know how many times I had moved in and moved out in the past years. It has been a lot like hell. Really, as if we are not humans, but survivors. We wake up, work, eat, sleep, wake up, work, and pay what needs to be paid. Really, life is beautiful AND harsh. I guess we need to work harder than ever for life to work on us. I pitied Mama, for all those hard times and sacrifices she made in order for us to live. And here I am, away from them. Guess this is the only place I can confidently say that I miss Mama the most. I was there when those things happened. In fact, it was said that I am the living witness to all events, except for the corners left destroyed, scattered, and buried underground.
Until I have to go, too. Because she wanted to. Because I have to. Because we simply can't live with each other around. Because she said I have to go on, move out, and get lost.
Third, I won't give up this space I have here. Just for the sake of trying to live up with the new ones today, the idea of it never crossed my mind. I believe this space I have here is one of the reasons why I am still sane. And I like the thought of it. That there are still reasons to live.
Fourth, I thank my brother for not putting me into jail for the thousands of sin I made. I'm sorry but I had to do it. I know I disappointed you, guess you actually anticipated it to happen. You know that I have to live, too. That's why. I'm so sorry, and thank you. When I come back, I will be a better person. I hope you'll forgive me.
Fifth, what reason could it be than knowing we just made a stunning history? Or should I say, because of him things just happen the way I want things to happen. Last June 24, at exactly 10:33 AM, I was enrolled for this coming semester as a second year college student at the Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Muntinlupa. No more first years anymore. Knowing that I conquered that phase of my life is really overwhelming. Although I can't show how glad I was when I was paying at the cashier. Tsk. It was a quiet, really quiet blast for me. Other students might find the enrollment procedure annoying and tiring but for me it wasn't. I just.. can't find the right words to type. I am just happy, until now. :)
And I thank him for all the countless belssings I received. Richard, you don't know how happy I am. You just know how much these means to me. For making my dreams come true, thank you!
Sixth, Last June 2, I moved out from my brother's place. My rent expired the end of May and he had given me two days to pack up and leave. After looking for a place, we found a small house with a small fence in the front for a stunning, unbelievable, lowest rent I heard ever in my entire life. The thing is, every thing is broken. From ceiling to the fence, to the kitchen, up to the bathroom. But I still manage to imagine how would it like if I live there. So we made a decent deal with the owner who live far away and finally got the house. Dude, honestly, it wasn't the best house but it was the best decision I made. After 3 weeks, I finally finished re-painting the entire house. Yes you read it right. The entire wall inside the house was a mess. The contractor must have fled away after getting the downpayment from the contract. Seriously, it's like riff raff. Is that what they call it? Anyway, I painted walls, hung nice curtains, and fixed what needed to be fixed. I even made a stone stove since I am now a Mason starter. I love to create things through the mixture of mortar. I even fixed a broken wall.
So much for a post.. He he..
I would post as much as I can.
I'll be back!
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