#SCHOOL
Please God, make it possible for me to go to college this June. Please, make it happen.
#Praying
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28 March 2014
Peace within us.
Yesterday, even though I only have a single idea about the Comprehensive Agreement of the Bangsamoro, I am one of the thousand Filipino citizens and our Muslim brothers and sisters that celebrated the peace agreement between the government of the Philippines and the MILF. I read some articles on line and found out that in 2016, Bangsamoro entity will replace the Autonomous Region in Muslim Mindanao. Yesterday became a history for all the Filipino people and what will happen in 2016 will also become a history. President Noynoy made a big difference in this term, really. The peace agreement constitute the end of a decade-long war of MILF against the Philippine Government and inside me, I'm happy.
Although I don't have much idea about it, I would try to involve myself more so that eventually I would understand what's happening around me.
And for our Muslim brothers and sisters, peace within us and ourselves. For all the lives that was gone and for all the brave young souls that's still fighting for their own rights-- I'm with you. :)
I hope that it will be the beginning of the tight relationships within ourselves.
Yesterday, even though I only have a single idea about the Comprehensive Agreement of the Bangsamoro, I am one of the thousand Filipino citizens and our Muslim brothers and sisters that celebrated the peace agreement between the government of the Philippines and the MILF. I read some articles on line and found out that in 2016, Bangsamoro entity will replace the Autonomous Region in Muslim Mindanao. Yesterday became a history for all the Filipino people and what will happen in 2016 will also become a history. President Noynoy made a big difference in this term, really. The peace agreement constitute the end of a decade-long war of MILF against the Philippine Government and inside me, I'm happy.
Although I don't have much idea about it, I would try to involve myself more so that eventually I would understand what's happening around me.
And for our Muslim brothers and sisters, peace within us and ourselves. For all the lives that was gone and for all the brave young souls that's still fighting for their own rights-- I'm with you. :)
I hope that it will be the beginning of the tight relationships within ourselves.
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METEOR GARDEN
Last year, around April, I was supposed to write a blog post about this. In fact, I've been meaning to write about it since 2010. When I was new to blogging and there was nothing to share than to say what my favorites are.
And here, after almost a year-- I dead forgot to write about it.
I was goofing around facebook when a then-co workmate of mine posted about Meteor Garden. She said she's so excited for it. So I tried to search "Meteor Garden 2014", and here what I found:
ABS-CBN will gonna make an ultimate throwback of METEOR GARDEN this March 31! My gosh. I was in shock up until now! I can't believe it. Only ABS-CBN can make that feel-- going back in the past.
They will gonna make a rerun of the original Meteor Garden. So Dao Ming Si will make me drool again for the nth time. ^^
Back on my forgotten-supposedly-post, I was about to share and celebrate the 10th year anniversary of Meteor Garden last year. In what I could remember, they had it run on April 12, 2003 on the late afternoon slot in ABS-CBN. I was only 12 year-old then, savoring my summer vacation before I embarked on my freshmen year. I could still reminisce about it, and actually remember how crazy the country was before! When the school started everyone including me (when my hair was actually cut short) sported the braided pony tail and the body bag! Like San Chai. Everyone that I know of would sing their song and would rush to their houses before sun sets! The boys would grow their hair like those of the F4 boys when it was prohibited to do so. There were even moments when those spotted having a long hair would be called out and our Guidance Coordinator then, Mr. Gaon would threaten to cut their hair in front of all the students. It happened, really. On the spot and on the stage on every morning after ceremony! Ha! Ha!
I could still remember.. Hay..
Meteor Garden and its beloved casts became a threat to my health and my studies. I can't focus. All I could think was the scene, those kilig scenes with Dao Ming Si. I'm quite lucky I still got some hold.. Ahaha!
But the best part of it was when everyone, including my brother collected every picture, poster, poster ad, stickers, t-shirts, mugs, notebooks-- Dude, they are in every thing that has been manufactured at that time. And me? I never let them leave me behind, I have my collections, too! :D
I have this photo cards, wallet size pictures of them that was left. I can't blame my mother for throwing them when I was growing up. In the years that has passed she had been calling them trash because I wasn't that keen on keeping them safe. So the only left collectibles that's in my old bag was the wallet size photo cards and some stickers. BUT they are more than 10 YEARS OLD! These days they can be considered vintage! Ha! Ha!
I'll post the photo card here soon. In fact, I don't know someone who also have a Meteor Garden memorabilia.. But I'm sure there are some. Well, we're sisters in this! :D
Meteor Garden was way more-- thousand miles-- different from our modern Asian dramas today. They inhibit out-of-this world characters and story but the way they delivered the show was pure dynamite to us when it was aired here.
I remember crying when I can't go to their concert at Ultra! It was around November 2003. My goodness, it was aired live on TV and it was sold out! Every reporter that I know of was reporting about it and all I could do was hang on our colored TV for more updates! I can't believe I just let the opportunity to passed by like that when I could see them in person-- even if it's gonna be quite far. Their arrival here was priceless. The thought of them walked here somewhere and breathed the Philippine air like I do every day will always stay in my heart. ^^
Well, how cheesy is that? Hmm.
I thank those who made the drama, everyone of them and also for running it here. It made my early teen-age years not just memorable but sweet with love, hope and dreams.
Dude, I even have them in my bucket lists!
-- Meet the cast of Meteor Garden in person and have their autograph signs and take a picture with them before I die.
You think it will happen?
Hmm..
Sure I am. :) With great prayers and a lot of money, by then, I could afford at least a date with Dao Ming Si.. ^^
But the pity-est of all-- WE DON'T HAVE CHANNEL 2!! OUR TV RECEPTION CAN'T HAVE ABS-CBN. HU HU ..
But then again, every scene, every dialogue and moments were already in my mind and heart.
photo: credits to the owner/s
Last year, around April, I was supposed to write a blog post about this. In fact, I've been meaning to write about it since 2010. When I was new to blogging and there was nothing to share than to say what my favorites are.
And here, after almost a year-- I dead forgot to write about it.
I was goofing around facebook when a then-co workmate of mine posted about Meteor Garden. She said she's so excited for it. So I tried to search "Meteor Garden 2014", and here what I found:
ABS-CBN will gonna make an ultimate throwback of METEOR GARDEN this March 31! My gosh. I was in shock up until now! I can't believe it. Only ABS-CBN can make that feel-- going back in the past.
They will gonna make a rerun of the original Meteor Garden. So Dao Ming Si will make me drool again for the nth time. ^^
Back on my forgotten-supposedly-post, I was about to share and celebrate the 10th year anniversary of Meteor Garden last year. In what I could remember, they had it run on April 12, 2003 on the late afternoon slot in ABS-CBN. I was only 12 year-old then, savoring my summer vacation before I embarked on my freshmen year. I could still reminisce about it, and actually remember how crazy the country was before! When the school started everyone including me (when my hair was actually cut short) sported the braided pony tail and the body bag! Like San Chai. Everyone that I know of would sing their song and would rush to their houses before sun sets! The boys would grow their hair like those of the F4 boys when it was prohibited to do so. There were even moments when those spotted having a long hair would be called out and our Guidance Coordinator then, Mr. Gaon would threaten to cut their hair in front of all the students. It happened, really. On the spot and on the stage on every morning after ceremony! Ha! Ha!
I could still remember.. Hay..
Meteor Garden and its beloved casts became a threat to my health and my studies. I can't focus. All I could think was the scene, those kilig scenes with Dao Ming Si. I'm quite lucky I still got some hold.. Ahaha!
But the best part of it was when everyone, including my brother collected every picture, poster, poster ad, stickers, t-shirts, mugs, notebooks-- Dude, they are in every thing that has been manufactured at that time. And me? I never let them leave me behind, I have my collections, too! :D
I have this photo cards, wallet size pictures of them that was left. I can't blame my mother for throwing them when I was growing up. In the years that has passed she had been calling them trash because I wasn't that keen on keeping them safe. So the only left collectibles that's in my old bag was the wallet size photo cards and some stickers. BUT they are more than 10 YEARS OLD! These days they can be considered vintage! Ha! Ha!
I'll post the photo card here soon. In fact, I don't know someone who also have a Meteor Garden memorabilia.. But I'm sure there are some. Well, we're sisters in this! :D
Meteor Garden was way more-- thousand miles-- different from our modern Asian dramas today. They inhibit out-of-this world characters and story but the way they delivered the show was pure dynamite to us when it was aired here.
I remember crying when I can't go to their concert at Ultra! It was around November 2003. My goodness, it was aired live on TV and it was sold out! Every reporter that I know of was reporting about it and all I could do was hang on our colored TV for more updates! I can't believe I just let the opportunity to passed by like that when I could see them in person-- even if it's gonna be quite far. Their arrival here was priceless. The thought of them walked here somewhere and breathed the Philippine air like I do every day will always stay in my heart. ^^
Well, how cheesy is that? Hmm.
I thank those who made the drama, everyone of them and also for running it here. It made my early teen-age years not just memorable but sweet with love, hope and dreams.
Dude, I even have them in my bucket lists!
-- Meet the cast of Meteor Garden in person and have their autograph signs and take a picture with them before I die.
You think it will happen?
Hmm..
Sure I am. :) With great prayers and a lot of money, by then, I could afford at least a date with Dao Ming Si.. ^^
But the pity-est of all-- WE DON'T HAVE CHANNEL 2!! OUR TV RECEPTION CAN'T HAVE ABS-CBN. HU HU ..
But then again, every scene, every dialogue and moments were already in my mind and heart.
Cheers to one of my favorite and country's favorite drama show of all time:
Meteor Garden,
soon on ABS-CBN again. ^_^
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Prologue
I was in hysteria last week and I could not fathom my imaginations. They seem to have their own lives than me. Selfish mind.
Anyway, it seems that my life still needed some fuel and those imaginations had helped me to understand what are the things that I'm lacking of: Education.
To be precise-- a college education. To be honest, I haven't finished my college education and I'm willing to trade all my guitars and books just to be able to get into college. And after 6 years of thinking, I finally got a bucket of guts to go back to my High School and get my card and transcript of records. Those are the essential requirements for one to enter college.
The history goes back when I was only 17 years old ( I finished High School at 16- with an honor and too many to mention awards) and was admitted in college, a private school here in our town but then, due to multiple business/personal/financial failure of my family after I finished my first year in college, I wasn't able to continue to second year in the year 2008. And since then, the history continues.
A dysfunctional family, an unworthy job, homeless, and a frustrated entrepreneur.
Things happened, and I know it was their big fault. But not continuing my college studies is another thing. Now I know. I stopped before, it was their mistake. Now I am in-charge of my life, this time it's going to be my decision. Money or no money, homeless and jobless-- I WON'T LET THIS SCHOOL YEAR PASS BY ON ME ANYMORE.
I was in hysteria last week and I could not fathom my imaginations. They seem to have their own lives than me. Selfish mind.
Anyway, it seems that my life still needed some fuel and those imaginations had helped me to understand what are the things that I'm lacking of: Education.
To be precise-- a college education. To be honest, I haven't finished my college education and I'm willing to trade all my guitars and books just to be able to get into college. And after 6 years of thinking, I finally got a bucket of guts to go back to my High School and get my card and transcript of records. Those are the essential requirements for one to enter college.
The history goes back when I was only 17 years old ( I finished High School at 16- with an honor and too many to mention awards) and was admitted in college, a private school here in our town but then, due to multiple business/personal/financial failure of my family after I finished my first year in college, I wasn't able to continue to second year in the year 2008. And since then, the history continues.
A dysfunctional family, an unworthy job, homeless, and a frustrated entrepreneur.
Things happened, and I know it was their big fault. But not continuing my college studies is another thing. Now I know. I stopped before, it was their mistake. Now I am in-charge of my life, this time it's going to be my decision. Money or no money, homeless and jobless-- I WON'T LET THIS SCHOOL YEAR PASS BY ON ME ANYMORE.
I AM GOING TO ENTER COLLEGE AND I'LL DO MY BEST TO DO IT, FINISH IT AND HAVE A DEGREE.
NO. MATTER. WHAT.
IT IS GOING TO BE A HELL OF A ROLLER COASTER BUT I'M SURE THE RIDE WILL BE WORTHWHILE. IT WILL. I'LL MAKE IT DIFFERENT THIS TIME. THIS TIME, THE WORLD WON'T LEAVE ME BEHIND. WHATEVER HAPPENS, I'LL BE IN THE BATCH 2018 OF WHATEVER SCHOOL IT MAY BE.
GOD BLESS ME.
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25 March 2014
24 March 2014
19 March 2014
Let It Go
Idina Menzel version
The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen.
A kingdom of isolation,
and it looks like I'm the Queen
The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in;
Heaven knows I've tried
Don't let them in,
don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel,
don't let them know
Well now they know
Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door
I don't care
what they're going to say
Let the storm rage on.
The cold never bothered me anyway
It's funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all
It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me,
I'm free!
Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You'll never see me cry
Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on
My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I'm never going back, the past is in the past
Let it go, let it go
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone
Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on
The cold never bothered me anyway!
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16 March 2014
5th year
I was reading some drafts here and realized that it has been 5 years since I started this blog..
I wonder what I've been doing last January 18 that I forgot to celebrate that day with you my blog. I'm so sorry for being so forgetful.
Happy 5th birthday PahinaKo.!
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12 March 2014
Tug-of-War
You know that kind of feeling when you think you're still a child but they say you should go and find a job?
I am.. Like some kind of a personality is living inside me. Another being within me.
And I found that if you want to know how cold something, you have to know how hot something is.
To know how can happy you can be, well, of course you should know what it's like to so sad and lonely.
To measure ones determination towards something, one should know the depth of what lies outside the core..
I have found that no matter what I did to like and embrace having a job, a work to be exact, no other will can ever parallel my will to bring back my dream business. Just to be inside the business circle makes it more precise.
Last month, I got a job from an American company. The position offered was just like my previous job. I passed the exam, typing test, and the 3-hour interview with colors. I've starter right away, like they needed a manpower that fast.. I even passed the training but there was this feeling I won't make it that night. You know that same feeling I got two or three years ago? It's like consuming me like a fire eating a mansion. Crumbled like a wrecked ship. My first day after the training, that night, that first break time, after four hours of sitting in front of that computer-- I took my things, my bag, my tumbler, then got to the elevator when there was no around and took off, fled away like a runaway murderer.
I no longer can take that..
I realized, all I want is freedom and that I want the rest of my life to start as soon as possible and the possible way to do that is to take care of myself, my life, my future.. Take it with both my hands and start again. It's not that late, I'm just starting.
They texted me right away why I was missing. But.. No, I won't go back there. I want to take charge with my life from now on. No matter how much work it may take me from doing it. I don't mind doing what I do.. As long as it is for me and for my siblings.
And I found that if you want to know how cold something, you have to know how hot something is.
To know how can happy you can be, well, of course you should know what it's like to so sad and lonely.
To measure ones determination towards something, one should know the depth of what lies outside the core..
I have found that no matter what I did to like and embrace having a job, a work to be exact, no other will can ever parallel my will to bring back my dream business. Just to be inside the business circle makes it more precise.
Last month, I got a job from an American company. The position offered was just like my previous job. I passed the exam, typing test, and the 3-hour interview with colors. I've starter right away, like they needed a manpower that fast.. I even passed the training but there was this feeling I won't make it that night. You know that same feeling I got two or three years ago? It's like consuming me like a fire eating a mansion. Crumbled like a wrecked ship. My first day after the training, that night, that first break time, after four hours of sitting in front of that computer-- I took my things, my bag, my tumbler, then got to the elevator when there was no around and took off, fled away like a runaway murderer.
I no longer can take that..
I realized, all I want is freedom and that I want the rest of my life to start as soon as possible and the possible way to do that is to take care of myself, my life, my future.. Take it with both my hands and start again. It's not that late, I'm just starting.
They texted me right away why I was missing. But.. No, I won't go back there. I want to take charge with my life from now on. No matter how much work it may take me from doing it. I don't mind doing what I do.. As long as it is for me and for my siblings.
I can. I will. And I'll do it.
Do it right this time. :)
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Status Quo: Half Alive..
Though it has been a helluva of a decade from my last decent post, my reason for not updating this blog was that my computer's browser couldn't enter to blogger. Believe it or not, either somebody updated and stole my computer's OS, or was this machine was ever formatted while I was out somewhere-- all of them I have no idea. All of a sudden, it can't open any browser.. And I have just downloaded an updated version of Opera. Yes, I'm using Opera now because my computer can't open the rest of the installed browsers here.
And Opera's quite easy to use. :)
I'd love to have this as my main browser.
Now I can go to blogger and update like it's the end of the year.. ^^
So.. Hello world!
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Deeper
Julie Anne San Jose
Crumpled sheets of paper
With written songs for you
My hands shiver, this heart beating
This love might be true.
So close, yet so distant
I don't know why never have I imagined,
I'd fall for you.
Let the dawn gather all our doubts
That would infect this perfect heart
For no reason than I'm here
I know of nothing more complete.
Each day, my love grows deeper
Deeper like never before
Love is not easy but I'm holding on to this
So don't give up
And fill my heart
Nothing else matters,
But you and me.
We're drifting apart
My only greatest fear
I thought I could live without you
Shouldn't drown in tears.
To you my all I surrender
I've been waiting patiently
You'd never leave,
You promised be my man,
I love you freely.
Each day, my love grows deeper
Deeper like never before
Love is not easy but I'm holding on to this
So don't give up
And fill my heart
Nothing else matters,
But you and me.
Without a doubt you hold my heart
Close your eyes and feel my love
Take a breath, hold it dreaming
My heart is yours I'll be waiting
Each day, my love grows deeper
Deeper like never before
Love is not easy but I'm holding on to this
So don't give up
And fill my heart
Nothing else matters,
But you and me.
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