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27 January 2012
08.01.10 Attack
I would never forget, or let's say I could never forget this day.
But why on earth do I need to remember this day for??
While making my first coffee today, I found a receipt that was signed by someone but was 'received' by my father when in fact, my father wasn't around that time. He was in Dubai and while staring at the receipt I realized it was from this certain company with 08-01-10 date on it..
Yeah, the one who mobbed us without reason.
I cried like hell that day. Every neighbor that I know saw what happened and it happened like a hurricane, crying was the only thing I knew doing.
I could never forget that day cause I swore to God it won't happen again. Not in this lifetime-AGAIN. I wished papa was here when it happened. So that he would have the same share of pain and hurt I got that day. I wished mama was there too, so that she could see what unfortunate life could actually be.
Anyway, I wanted to take a photo of this receipt but I can't see my cellphone, probably hiding somewhere. I'll post it sometime..
*****
Life is about trusting our feelings, taking chances, finding happiness, appreciating the memories, and learning from the past.
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FreeCell.
What is your favorite computer game? Me? The one's you won't need an internet to play.
I really love the old Tetris game where you could actually scream while playing it. But since the beginning of my knowledge at computer, FreeCell was always the most in-demand for me to play. In fact, it has a desktop shortcut and my day won't be complete without playing a single game of it.
My family knew it better than what is my favorite color. ^^
Recently, I made this 3-day marathon to achieve a 100-win in FreeCell. I reset the scoring board to 0 (zero) and started my 3-day marathon.. I already had more than a hundred times win but I want to do it this time within 3- days. :)
Here's the proof.. (you can click the photo to enlarge..)
What is your favorite computer game? Me? The one's you won't need an internet to play.
I really love the old Tetris game where you could actually scream while playing it. But since the beginning of my knowledge at computer, FreeCell was always the most in-demand for me to play. In fact, it has a desktop shortcut and my day won't be complete without playing a single game of it.
My family knew it better than what is my favorite color. ^^
Recently, I made this 3-day marathon to achieve a 100-win in FreeCell. I reset the scoring board to 0 (zero) and started my 3-day marathon.. I already had more than a hundred times win but I want to do it this time within 3- days. :)
Here's the proof.. (you can click the photo to enlarge..)
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Is it possible?
For quite sometime, it's hard for me to do the things I want to do the most. Mainly because I, myself was the one in-charge to do the things for other people. Leaving me no time for myself.
Last year, I planned to escape. Then tried to kill myself. Only to let other people down because of my careless acts. Letting them know how unworthy I am.. But why after all these troubles, I am still here? With this useless mind of mine and these unreasonable reasons??
I started this year as calmly as possible but I still have these nightmares.
God, please help me.
For quite sometime, it's hard for me to do the things I want to do the most. Mainly because I, myself was the one in-charge to do the things for other people. Leaving me no time for myself.
Last year, I planned to escape. Then tried to kill myself. Only to let other people down because of my careless acts. Letting them know how unworthy I am.. But why after all these troubles, I am still here? With this useless mind of mine and these unreasonable reasons??
I started this year as calmly as possible but I still have these nightmares.
God, please help me.
*****
Being disliked is part of life, you can never satisfy everyone. But that was never my goal, I live for me, & only me.
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22 January 2012
Looks Crazy In Love
Lee Jung
When I became exhausted by love
I despised myself
When I suffered because of love
I only shed tears
In front of the destiny of the lonely world
I endure through a day and another
I press down my frustrated heart
And I shout out your name again
I go crazy because of this love
I put myself on the line because of this love
My heart hurts like I'm going to die
I shout out and call out to you
I strengthlessly walk and collapse
And I take out the past memories
The good days, the bad days
I reminisce and I call out to you
Tears are forming
Not being able to trust love, I lean against my shot glass
Not being able to withstand the pain, I comfort myself
Even if the world turned away from me
You were different- you believed in me
When no one else recognized me,
You were different - you gave me courage
I go crazy because of this love
I put myself on the line because of this love
Till the day I die, I love you
I go crazy because of this love
I bring up my courage
I love you
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Ruthless.
I've been very busy lately and was unable to sit and surf the web this past few days.
Sleepless and tired..
I'm wondering if it's raining outside. I heard raindrops.. or it wasn't??
:)
I.. am.. mad and sad and confused and totally worried right now.
Papa called from Dubai and told us that he was sick. No. He was sick for the past 2 weeks and was already in the hospital, that he was diagnosed with this unfamiliar.. Hay. I really don't know what to do. We are so worried. Should we fly right now. Mama's so panicked...
And I am about to cry. ><
2012 is getting good until this. THESE.
My..
Ahhhh..
:)
I.. am.. mad and sad and confused and totally worried right now.
Papa called from Dubai and told us that he was sick. No. He was sick for the past 2 weeks and was already in the hospital, that he was diagnosed with this unfamiliar.. Hay. I really don't know what to do. We are so worried. Should we fly right now. Mama's so panicked...
And I am about to cry. ><
2012 is getting good until this. THESE.
My..
Ahhhh..
Don't look for someone who will solve all your problems. Look for someone who won't let you to face them alone.
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18 January 2012
15 January 2012
Do you know what a Piriform Cleaner can do?
It can delete your files in a single click for the rest of your life. That's forever. And you'll wonder what an idiot you are to be too stupider than a stupid 'cause you are still wondering what are the files that have been deleted of your stupid self.
Bow.
It can delete your files in a single click for the rest of your life. That's forever. And you'll wonder what an idiot you are to be too stupider than a stupid 'cause you are still wondering what are the files that have been deleted of your stupid self.
Bow.
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11 January 2012
I go crazy because of this love
I put myself on the line because of this love
My heart hurts like I'm going to die
I shout out and call out to you
I strengthlessly walk and collapse
And I take out the past memories
The good days, the bad days
I reminisce and I call out to you
- Looks Crazy In Love, Lee Jung
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Crown
There was this synopsis I've read somewhere that kind of familiar to me. Seems like my story to be exact, and then..
It was a tragedy at the beginning of the story. What kind of thing you could get from a tragedy, huh?
Hay..
I wanna put a decent and serious post here today but I keep on coming here and then log out, log in and then log out. Cause there's nothing to post about nowadays. I don't even know what is the difference between being busy and being a person with nothing to do at all.
I've been sleeping the whole day and my only break was the super-late meals.
Oh. Can I also have a decent meal??
It's so cold in the wee hours of the morning up until late afternoons. I hate the way our weather acts. As if it will kill all the people within it's reach.
My mother suspects me that I'm watching porn videos right. My.. How could she just say that? I'm downloading movies, Ma.. Movies. Not porn videos! Gosh. And even if I do, why would I show you??
I want world peace. To be honest. I can't take those true stories being told in the TV. Though I also need some assistance, I don't think I'm really at the edge right now. I wish I could do something.
There was this synopsis I've read somewhere that kind of familiar to me. Seems like my story to be exact, and then..
It was a tragedy at the beginning of the story. What kind of thing you could get from a tragedy, huh?
Hay..
I wanna put a decent and serious post here today but I keep on coming here and then log out, log in and then log out. Cause there's nothing to post about nowadays. I don't even know what is the difference between being busy and being a person with nothing to do at all.
I've been sleeping the whole day and my only break was the super-late meals.
Oh. Can I also have a decent meal??
It's so cold in the wee hours of the morning up until late afternoons. I hate the way our weather acts. As if it will kill all the people within it's reach.
My mother suspects me that I'm watching porn videos right. My.. How could she just say that? I'm downloading movies, Ma.. Movies. Not porn videos! Gosh. And even if I do, why would I show you??
I want world peace. To be honest. I can't take those true stories being told in the TV. Though I also need some assistance, I don't think I'm really at the edge right now. I wish I could do something.
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I have many thorns
So I have a lot of scars
Can you still hug me, who is like this?
I want to lean against you in your embrace
The love that I abandoned again and again
I want to believe again
Because I have many tears, I fear love
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08 January 2012
Bad Day
Daniel Powter
Where is the moment we needed the most?
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
They tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, the camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, the camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
Mmm, on a holiday
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing it turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where was the passion when you need it the most?
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, you see what you're like
And how does it feel a one more time?
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
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06 January 2012
January Bomb
The other day I got a new digital camera. Yesterday I got a new Blackberry cellphone.
What's happening to the world??
January is quite good so far.
And I'm working on getting a brand new life, also.
Brand new job.
This time.. I won't let myself fall. ^^
2012.
Be good to me! :)
The other day I got a new digital camera. Yesterday I got a new Blackberry cellphone.
What's happening to the world??
January is quite good so far.
And I'm working on getting a brand new life, also.
Brand new job.
This time.. I won't let myself fall. ^^
2012.
Be good to me! :)
The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart.
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