Black, black, black and blue..
♫ Beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "Hey"
When you get back from where you from.. ♫
Here I am again. And this feeling. Can someone explain to me why I always feel this.
I already said this here before, just recently..
It's when you feel like you weren't been there but you did. You were there before.
It's when you really like something- you even fight for it. And yet, it seems that you never liked it, really. Just that you realized..
It's when you once love something or someone and wake up one morning, realizing you did NOT. Never.
You know that kind of feeling??
It's scary as hell. As if you also do not know yourself.
What you want..
What you did want..
But maybe, just because.
Just because.
And I just realized something while typing this in here.. is that..
Maybe we need those things to help us know ourselves better.
I remember making that old template before. I spent so many days just to satisfy myself. I thought I love that template. Loved. The title image down to simplicity of it's content. But then, I just realized that after spending the whole night up until now.. I wonder where that love have gone..
It disappeared.
Without any marks that, I, once have a great affection for that design.
Where's that significance go??
And now, here I am again, fulfilling the last thing on my project list. :)
I somehow manage to success in this project, excluding the Write It All part. Duh? It's more than 400 pages, and I cannot do that for 4 days. Maybe if I cheat on myself, tear off the 300 pages of it or just tell you that I did finish write the WHOLE book.
If that so..
Then to whom did I lied to, then?
Of course, to myself.
That's why I keep on being honest, as possible as I can..
Tell everything that I want to share because this is the only contribution I can give to the sacredness of being a human.
Cheating is a nature of human being..
That's why.
That's why I made a decision to give this sanctuary another chance to grow.
Along with me, I wish.
Welcome to my new blog!
No.
Welcome to my blog with it's new design.
No. No.
Welcome to my blog! I wish you would like the design..
I made it! ^^
Haha..
What a princess disease.
It's okay.
As long as I don't look like a hypocrite. :)
About the simple transformation of my blog..
I thought of the color green and yellow.
But I'm sorry.
I love black.
Just love black. ♥
The image header is really funny. But it has a lot of meanings.
The lines and the colors.
And the background..
It's very "me"..
But I think it's not the time to put the comments section. To be honest, I blog but I can't remember when I did visit other blogs. That's why I removed the comment section and just write it my blog as long as I have a time..
Still, only one person who personally know me, knew that I have a blog.
She isn't even a family or relative..
It's always just me and my blog..
Woooo! :)
Hurray!!!!
I wish I have a lot to say in here than rant about life.
I'm happy because I'm satisfied and realized that there will always those things that I cannot fix and cannot do about.
I just accept them as they are..
And sometimes wait for it, to see what exactly it's form..
There would be people who'll come and change things..
There would be tragedies and heartaches..
Just that I wish, along with it- there will also happiness. :)
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This song became my companion the whole night- looking, staring and thinking about this whole new design.. :)
God Gave Me You
Bryan White
For all the times I felt cheated, I complained
You know how I love to complain
For all the wrongs I repeated, though I was to blame
I still cursed that rain
I didn't have a prayer, didn't have a clue
Then out of the blue
God gave me you to show me what's real
There's more to life than just how I feel
And all that I'm worth is right before my eyes
And all that I live for though I didn't know why
Now I do, 'cause God gave me you
For all the times I wore my self pity like a favorite shirt
All wrapped up in that hurt
For every glass I saw, I saw half empty
Now it overflows like a river through my soul
From every doubt I had, I'm finally free
I truly believe
God gave me you to show me what's real
There's more to life than just how I feel
And all that I'm worth is right before my eyes
And all that I live for though I didn't know why
Now I do, 'cause God gave me you
In your arms I'm someone new
With ever tender kiss from you
Oh must confess
I've been blessed
God gave me you to show me what's real
There's more to life than just how I feel
And all that I'm worth is right before my eyes
And all that I live for though I didn't know why (didn't know why)
Now I do (I finally do), 'cause God gave me you (God gave me You)
God gave me you
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