4 Days Marathon!
Okay. I'm going to do some volunteer work. PUHAHAHA.
In fact, volunteer work for myself. And I will call it, "Elleine's 4 Days Marathon" .. ^^
And it will include the following:
1. Write it ALL.
2. Listen and finish that song.
3. Prepare for Eloida's up coming birthday.
4. Call/text someone.
5. Watch- really watch TV.
6. Greet fatso.
7. Sleep early.
8. Change theme.
Know why? Well.. I don't know either why am I doing this. I'm just inspired.
Maybe because things becoming clear day by day. I got to laugh and smile differently. Think differently and treat people nice. It's a strange and familiar feeling.
It's like a smell of perfume, one that makes us remember something from the past..
A strange and familiar thing at the same time. :)
About my project. Well again.. I realized that September 2011 is going to say goodbye in our office calendar and thought that I should do something, if not for other people, maybe just for myself. Imagine? I've been here in our house for the last 4 months with nothing to do, nothing good to do. If I can remember, no more than ten times I've been outside within that 4 months! After May 25, I've gone out to my work's office to file a resignation, that was June 2 at 10 PM (Is it too obvious that I hate morning and sunlight??). After that, July.. maybe last week of July or first week of August when we visited our old house, can't remember. Then I'd gone to church and had a quite walk with myself on my 21st birthday, that was August 7. Then, I got ill again, gone to the hospital 4 times, been admitted for 6 days and.. nothing else. PUHAHAHA.
I can't believe I've never get to go out for a while. I can't even manage to stand for 5 minutes in our main door, going out would really be hard. But the feeling of being alienated was nothing. The last time I spoke to someone was Eloida, telling me about some stuff I don't understand. And I know that she knew I'm not paying attention all the time.^^
Maybe I should try to talk to someone.
Maybe I should open my Facebook account and get some sucking news with my-not-so-close-friends there. Funny thing is that, you get a lot of friends in Facebook, but no one is going to stay or be with you when you need one. That's why I stopped using that social networking site. WE both sucks. ^^
About the project, again and again. I'm going to do those things for the last days of September. There would be 4 days left, excluding this day. In fact, I can start now. But chose to mutter again here for some warm up.^^ I thought, maybe it's really cool to share these things here. Just like some kind of commitment. After all, things would just between me and my project. If I fail, it's my lost. If I do well, then that's what people from the Capable World usually call it, "You're improving".. BLAH. BLAH. BLAH.
Oh! I just noticed that BLAH is really an English word? Isn't it? Blogger really made this, huh? Just like Microsoft Word who keeps telling me that my name is incorrect. It will have that red underline mark, telling you that that word is incorrect. And BLAH is a word with correct spelling.
Just realized that Microsoft Word won't acknowledge me and my name either. Yah! Grr..
So about the project again, and again, and again..
1. Write it all. Yes. I promise to write it all. And study it ALL at the same time. Two Years won't be long. You will see.. :)
2. Okay. I usually don't put some facts about me. Thinking that posting about my daily activities would be enough to know me better. Well, my blog is my only solace. It's not something people in cyberspace could use this as a medium of entertainment. I listen to songs. Different songs, different languages. In fact, I listen to songs in 6 different languages. In addition, there were country songs and 2 Southern Filipino dialects that I used to listen to, and still listening into. I don't listen to the ones you usually hear in the radio. If happen I know a song that is being played in the radio, I might knew that song a month or year ahead. I download online in package, means the whole album. But the strange thing in my listening habit: Only 4 songs to date.. that I got to finished listening into. Further explaining this thing is that, whenever I listen to song, I won't gonna finish it. That's true. It's an honest confession. After the second chorus or the bridge part, I have a habit of turning the music off or changing it to another song. I don't know. I just feel that there are things that we should LEAVE LIKE THAT. NOT KNOWING WHAT IS THE END OF THE SONG MAKES IT REALLY EXCITING. ^^
3. I'm going to greet my biological sister here. Happy Birthday Eloida. You're too old to learn the sisterly things. And it's too late, we don't need a sister like you at all.
Eloida the eldest in our brood. She was never been a sister. Hehe!
But, because I just can't stand greeting you personally, 'cause I'm surely know you wouldn't accept it. Happy birthday dude. You were never been a sister to us. I hate to admit that I was always the one who acts older between us. I hate to admit that I'm always the one who would understand and give way. And I hate the way I'm saying these things here. You were never been a good sister, you ARE always a good friend and listener to us. Thank you for being there when I am in my deepest fallout. You were one of the very few people who listened and trusted me when I need one. Thank you. It doesn't matter if frying eggs and hot dogs are the only things you know at cooking. You will always be my sister, my friend. You.. being there is enough. I ♥ you, dude.
4. My cellphone is still dead as of press time. It died like.. almost two weeks. The battery is still low and I'm still in the process of thinking if I should charge it. Maybe yes. Maybe no. And maybe I should call someone. Just call someone. Ask then how they're doing. Really listen to them. Have a conversation with real people. It's a shame to admit that I'm recently had a talk with my pillow. A really honest talk with my pillow. It's so one-sided! PUHAHAHA.
5. I don't like watching TV. When will that be listed in my list? I wish I'm someone who's never complete without watching TV in a day. I know someone who's like that. And I can't understand why she had the courage to leave me in the middle of the mall because she remembered it was her favorite drama's time slot. 4:30 PM. Tsk. I can live without TV even for the rest of my life. My doctor even said that my attention time is around 5-8 minutes only. I remembered, I was in a bus and there was a TV, I tried watching the show. But I ended up pretending watching the show and find myself so irritated. I guess, I just looked at the television- fiercely. It annoyed me.
6. Hey, fatso! Happy birthday! I love you! Stay healthy and handsome. Let's meet sometime. Maybe after I get some pain killers and courage to get out of this house. ^^
I love you dude. I miss you, with them. Just stay healthy before the trial period. ^^
7. I slept early last night. Around 8 PM. ^^ My sleep was kinda sweet and deep. But HELL, why do I have to wake up at 1:30 AM? And now.. still awake. Hay. Maybe I should make this one in my top list. :)
8. This is it. I will change my blog's theme!! Definitely change it. I promise to present myself a good one next month. I will work hard for it.. :)
Wah. This is good. After posting these things here, I feel like I'm ready to do this. ^^
And also the theme, should I change it to white? My theme is all black and it's really depressing every time I visit my blog. I should. ^^
Call out my heart, free my soul.
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