King of Baking, Kim Tak Gu

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Ulap.

Gusto kong lumipad at abutin ang kalawakan.

Hawakan ang ulap at damhin ang hangin sa itaas.

Gaano kaya kasarap doon?

Kasing tahimik kaya ito ng gabi kapag naglalakad ako papuntang trabaho?

O kasing lamig ba ito ng simoy kapag disyembre?

Ano kaya ang meron sa itaas at bakit gustong gusto kong lumipad?

I wanna fly. And touch the sky.

Hope is a dream that never sleeps

Kyu Hyun

Baker king, Kim Tak Gu OST

It doesn’t matter if I’m lonely. Whenever I think of you

A smile spreads across my face.

It doesn’t matter if I’m tired. Whenever you are happy

My heart is filled with love.

Today I might live in a harsh world again.

Even if I’m tired, when I close my eyes, I only see your image.

The dreams that are still ringing in my ears

Are leaving my side towards you.

Everyday my life is like a dream.

If we can look at each other and love each other

I’ll stand up again.

To me, the happiness of those precious memories

Will be warmer during hard times.

For me, hope is a dream that never sleeps.

Like a shadow by my side you always

Quietly come to me.

To see if I’m hurt, to see if I’m lonely everyday

With feelings of yearning, you come to me.

Even if the world makes me cry, I’m okay.

Because you are always by my side.

Like dust, will those memories change and leave?

I’ll keep smiling to ease my heart.

Everyday my life is like a dream.

If we can look at each other and love each other

I’ll stand up again.

To me, the happiness of those precious memories

Will be warmer during hard times.

For me, hope is a dream that never sleeps.

No matter how many times I stumble and fall

I’m still standing like this.

I only have one heart.

When I’m tired you become my strength.

My heart is towards you forever.

So I swallowed the hurt and grief.

I’ll only show you my smiling form.

It doesn’t even hurt now.

I’ll always hold on to the dreams I want to fulfill with you

I’ll try to call for you at the place I cannot reach

I love you with all my heart.

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My dearest me,

Hi! How was your day? And night, too? I hope you're still fine even if I know you're not.
You are always tired and your eyes look sore, as always. Is that due to lack of sleep that those dark circles around your eyes becomes bigger and bigger nowadays?

Anyway, I would like to congratulate you for surviving this past three years of coldness and emptiness. I guess you're really one of your kind. :)

And also, I wish you'll find someone who will be with you, 'cause definitely you're alone, and loneliness sucks. ^^
And for everything that's happening.. just hold on. God's with you. :)
Have a good rest. You still have work tonight.


♥,
Yourself.

Sure, we all have things we want to change, to improve about ourselves. But underneath the flesh and bone, you are an immortal and perfect soul. Always remember that. 

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The girl from this video is a Filipina.

Great. Amazing voice. :)

Born This Way

Lady Gaga

It doesn’t matter if you love him, or capital H.I.M
Just put your paws up
’cause you were Born This Way, Baby

First Verse:
My mama told me when I was young
We are all born superstars
She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on
in the glass of her boudoir

There’s nothing wrong with loving who you are
she said, cause he made you perfect, babe
So hold your head up girl and you’ll go far
listen to me when I say

Chorus:
I’m beautiful in my way
’cause god makes no mistakes
I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way

Don’t hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you’re set
I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way

Post-Chorus:
ooo there ain’t no other way
baby I was born this way
baby I was born this way
ooo there ain’t no other way
baby I was born
I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way

Don’t be a drag - just be a queen
Don’t be a drag - just be a queen
Don’t be a drag - just be a queen
Don’t be!

2nd Verse:
Give yourself prudence
and love your friends
Subway kid, rejoice your truth

In the religion of the insecure
I must be myself, respect my youth

A different lover is not a sin
Believe capital H-I-M (hey hey hey)
I love my life I love this record and
Mi Amore Vole Fe Yah (love needs faith)

Bridge:
Don’t be a drag, just be a queen
Whether you’re broke or evergreen
You’re black, white, beige, chola descent
You’re lebanese, you’re orient
Whether life’s disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied, or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
‘Cause baby you were born this way

No matter gay, straight, or bi,
Lesbian, transgendered life
I’m on the right track baby
I was born to survive
No matter black, white or beige
Chola or orient made
I’m on the right track baby
I was born to be brave

Repeat Chorus

Outro/Refrain:

I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!

I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!

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Lady Gaga never disappoint us when it comes to writing songs. :) 

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There are times when no matter how hard you try, you just cannot accept yourself as you are. During such times, think of how you look to God's eyes. In God's eyes, there is no judgment, there is only acceptance. God sees your light when all that you can see are your shadows. God loves you more than anyone could ever love you as you really are. 

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Text Message.

I got a text message yesterday from a friend.

It says:

"Sometimes you just want to quit when things start hurting you. You want to leave everything as it is before the pain gets worse. But once you remember how much you've prayed, how much you really wanted it, and why you were fighting in the first place, hope comes back into your heart and maybe, just maybe- it is worth going this far."

I'll never forget the moment I read this message. As if there's a light that hit somewhere and I found myself reading this message over and over again.

I remember the time when I was still looking for a job. The time when I hurt my feet because of waiting for so many hours just to get my turn for an interview. The other one was when I cried because of those three man who bullied me, I was even thinking of Papa that moment. When I applied for a job and luckily got it. And when Mama was so happy for me, she even hugged and kissed me. My first day at my first work. The first time I was endorsed for a morning shift. The moment I got my first ever perfect document. The RLA's out of town. The Christmas party. The laugh trip moments with my best morning shift co-workers. The days I'm happy and the days that I'm so tired and mad. The moment they told me I'm going to transfer into another group. My first day at NorCal. The first three days of sacrifice, sleepy nights, and even got to the point of writing a resignation letter just to feed up my angriness. The nightmares I got for my first week and the first laugh I had with them. And all of the simple and joyful things I made and gave to other people, and not expecting anything in return..

Those things, from a simple quote-like text message.

I could never forget the moment I was eager to go to the ER to talk about my work. Or even ask them how to make a resignation letter. I was so desperate, I thought that everyone I'd see was an enemy. I thought I was betrayed. I thought God had forgotten me.

But I was wrong.

Until I finally assessed everything, because I waited for everything to turn out into what things really are.

My job, this is the only thing I got for myself. I once made a blog post about this- saying, "Quitting is a healthy choice." This is the only thing I got and was so proud- and yet still pushing through. I hate to think about it but I already point it out for Lovely to realize this one thing- if it doesn't make you happy then that's the time that you have to quit, it's a healthy choice.

I always say, "I have no choice" when in fact there is always an option.

That's why I tried to fight that kind of mantra.

I made it this far, and maybe these things really are worth a try.

Because I always have an option to stop. :)

And God always bring you the best life has to offer!

And when things get too ugly, remember how to wait until things turn out into something.

I was never been good at deciding that's why I usually assess things and from them, decide- what's good and what's right.

I'll push through the limits.

I'll never give up until it's time to quit.

And make things work, for me and for my loved ones.

Having the best family, friends and great co-workers are enough to make life easier to breath.

Happy Valentine's to all! :)

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Happy ♥ Day! :)

FEBRUARY

Feb 7
Tito Johnny, Mama's youngest sibling died at around 9 am due to Colon Cancer.
And I was in an Orientation at that time. I wasn't informed that the worst thing happened.
Feeling sorry for all of us that's left.
And for Mama.. who wasn't even there.
Shocked.
Sorry.
We love you.
We will always remember you. ♥

Feb 10
Payday.
Was able to buy a cellphone.
Thinking about it makes me sick.
So proud yet so sad and mad.
Feb 10 payday's coverage was January 16 - January 31, that's why I'm so mad. -_-

Feb 11, today
Mama's going to province. Maybe she has already aboard, or maybe departed already at the airport.
I want to come. I want to see him. I want.. I just want to come.
Because that's the least that I can do, though it's too late. 
I'm sorry.
But I wasn't able to come. I have work. I hate it.


How I wish I can turn back time.
Smile a lot.
Wish a lot.
Love a lot.
Dream a lot.
Care a lot.

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My workmate told me earlier this morning that I have to smile.
When I can't.
He even told me that Valentine's already in the air, that I should look like someone who's full of love, literally- blooming.
But I'm not.

I'm not in love.
Maybe, never been in love.
There's no such thing as love.
Those things are just "feelings"..

So maybe this feeling- mourning, would just fade away.
Because it's just a feeling.
Nothing else.

Valentine's? It's just an ordinary day.
Love? Just another kind of feeling. Nothing else.

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☺

Alak

Lang

Ang

May

Karapatan

Sa

Salitang

"Going Strong" .. 

:)

I'm a big fan of money, satisfied?

I was still hoping that everything would be fine. :)

Autumn's Concerto

Kinikilig ako kapag nakikita ko ang picture na ito. Hopefully, mapanood ko naman ito sa TV kahit tapos ko na. Gusto ko naman mapakinggan kung maganda ang translation nito sa Tagalog. ^_______^

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Kung Hei Fat Choi!

Spring festival, or what is more known as the Chinese New Year, is considered one of the most important events in China. The celebration is based on the lunar calendar, so that the first day of the lunar year marks the Chinese New Year. Thus, the event falls between late January to early February. The celebration begins on the eve of the lunar new year and continues on until the fifth day of the lunar calendar's first month. Next will come the lantern festival. This year Chinese New Year falls on February 3; the Year of the Rabbit.

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